23 Weeks

I'm over halfway finished with this pregnancy already, and I can only say one thing that I am feeling for sure : my body is not my own anymore.  There are mornings where I wrestle the blankets, pillows, cats, and husband to get out of bed only to look down and say "whose boobs are these?" or "my legs! where are MY legs?" 

Of course, the rewards FAR outweigh the trials.  We had our second set of ultrasounds today and the baby is growing so fast I can barely keep up.  It is all feeling very real to me.  It is hard to feel prepared.  Mostly because we aren't yet. We still have to get a crib, finish clearing out the baby room, and get more clothes and such.  It's not easy, and is - by far - the most stressful part of pregnancy.  I have bought several outfits already because I simply cannot live without them, they are so cute.

Knowing that we are having a boy has made this journey a little less stressful.  It is much easier to commit to buying something for him with the knowledge that there isn't the possibility of having to return it.  But also, having a boy is truly the most exciting news we've been given so far. Derek! and I feel so blessed to be making this addition to our family.

Being pregnant has reminded me of so many things I have hoped for my family.  The unconditional love and acceptance that I have dreamed of my children growing up with is a reality now and I just need to wrap my head around it.  Dylan has done a great job adjusting to all of the changes - going from being just he and I to being part of a family.  I am so thankful for his resilience and patience.  I know it has been hard for him, but I think it's nice to know we got here together and he always has me to lean on, never to judge him, and to protect him from the things that may seem uncertain. 

I'm excited to meet the baby boy.  I'm nervous for all the unknowns, but optimistic that love will guide us.  I feel so blessed to have a husband who accepts Dylan and I for who we are, all we lack, and all we have to give.  I'm happy we are enough.